Thursday, May 29, 2014

Saturdays

I love love love my kids on Saturdays when Erik is home to help! I look at them with amazement and can enjoy every moment to the fullest.
three very young kids is just a lot for one person to handle. I get lost in the demands and needs and overwhelming fussiness that I can't see past it during my days at home alone with them. But when the weekend comes and I have help and can actually take the kids out of the house and have fun, I'm able to realize just how much I love them

men are smart

Every woman wants babies. They push to get pregnant and work hard to convince their husbands that it's time to have children.
In most cases, the men are hesitant. They talk about how much work it will be and what a strain it will be on their relationship and finances.
And every wife says no, no, no don't worry about that, It'll be great, it'll be fun and wonderful... let's have a baby!!!
And then the baby comes and we realize how right on our husbands were.
Our hormones rule us and drive us to have children, despite any reality men may try to make us aware of.
They are right, kids are harder than we think!
But I guess if we didn't have these female hormones, no one would ever have kids and then where would all the joy be?

sacrifice and charity

Since having kids, I have no time or energy to give to any type of charity work, nor do I have any money to give as all my money is tied up in daycare costs.
Should I feel bad? Guilty?
Well,  I've decided that the answer is a big fat no! Having kids is the ultimate sacrifice. I've given up all my time, all my interests and all my money to care for these little people. I dedicate every moment of my life to make sure they are fed, clothed, happy, educated, and mentally stable.
Anyone can make one trip to an orphanage or donate some money to starving children, but the real challenge would be to take three of those kids home with you and be completely responsible for them for the rest of your life.
Having kids has taught me so many lessons and changed me as a person in so many ways, and one of those is learning what true sacrifice is. Giving of your whole self.
Being the best mom I can be and doing my best to put my kids first is my responsibility and how I'm currently serving God. My children are Gods children that he has given to me to guide and help turn them into good people.
It is a difficult job, but like any mission, it also brings immense rewards.
The twins are almost two and I am very proud of myself for making it through those first two years without running away or going off the deep end. They were hard years, but I stuck with it and put my kids first.
I had felt bad that I haven't been going to church and I haven't been available to help people out, but it's because I've been helping three very needy people 24/7. I shouldn't feel bad about that.
Being a mom is the ultimate mission, charity and sacrifice.